Its been a rough couple of weeks, maybe that is why I haven't updated this thing in a while?  I digress.

Work has been extremely up and down lately.  I finally have a pretty cool project which I get to work on from time to time, and my concept for a prototype is almost ready to submit for review.  All in all, I'm learning a lot from the project.  Other parts of work?  Boring as all shit. 

On top of work usually being pretty boring, I have had tons of problems with one friend, and then family. 

As far as the friend shituation.  Yes, shituation.  I used to have a pretty good friend, and when I saw him taking a road that would force a rift between us, I did something very uncharacteristic of me.  Instead of just saying fuck it, I tried to be patient and save a friendship.  Well, the whole thing backfired on me.  Instead of this individual realizing what I was trying to do, they just took a really defensive position and wouldn't stop to see what even other people were noticing.  All in all, I hope him and his new girlfriend are really happy together and continue to be (this is not sarcasm I sincerely mean it).  I am happy for him, but in another instant I see him making a huge mistake.  Not that he is dating this girl (she is actually really nice), but that he is changing himself into a mold of what he thinks she wants and needs.  I also have never been so disapointed in a friend.  This friend was close enough to know that what I was doing took huge leaps for me, and yet they threw this back in my face and told me that I couldn't be pleased and that everything he did was wrong in my eyes.  I tried for months with this friend, if he doesn't get it by now I'm forced to go my own way and let him go his own.  No hard feelings, just honestly don't like the person he's becoming and I don't need another 3-4 months of fighting.  Also, anyone who says I just swear friends off that easily apparently doesn't realize just how hard it is on me and how much it actually takes for me to do this.

On the family front.  I can not win with my family.  I am stuck in a situation where my mother says that my sister is wrong, yet I am wrong for sticking up for myself.  I understand where she is coming from, just wanting peace and all, but what I don't understand is if she knows that my sister is wrong, and she wants peace, then why doesn't the onis fall on my sister? 

Both situations bring me to the thought of a short story that Abe once had me read entitled " I have no mouth and I must scream".  This is honestly how I feel, except that I can scream just fine, but no one has ears to hear my cries.

If you don't want to read something corny you can just skip this paragraph and move on to the next.  Really who I owe my sanity to right now is Denise.  She has always been able to keep my sanity (relative) together despite whatever I am going through, and she can pull me through it laughing the whole way.  I am forever in debt to her and all that she has done for me. 

Now what everyone really wants to know.

I have been in training for about a month now in order to get in shapt to run a few 5Ks this summer.  I have spent the last month exercising indoors on my indoor trainer as well as the usual pushups and situps.  Finally with the beginging of April I have started my road training.  It is extremely rough, but I absolutely love getting back out there.  So far I am up to 3 miles.  I could probably push myself a bit harder but I am afraid to push my knees too hard as I have done in the past and put my knee out of commission for two weeks.  As much as I love running I love limping less.  Unless it is somebody else limping.  Gimps are hott.

Music.  Lately it has been Brand New and Say Anything.  I finally picked up the first album by Brand New (Your favorite weapon) and have fallen in love with Failure by Design as well as Soco Amaretto Lime.  Music to look forward would be a new release by Taking Back Sunday, Thursday, Murder by Death, and a couple other that escape me right now.  The new saves the day is horrible.  Rediculously horrible.

Movies.  Denise and I joined Netflix.  We are in the process of watching King Kong and legally blonde 2 is next.  After that it is Fun with Dick and Jane, Narnia, Closer, and a couple others.

Books.  I currently have not had much time to read but hope to read more now that the weather is getting nicer and can sit outside on the balcony.  If anyone has any sugestions I will entertain it at least for a second or two.  Denise and I were in Gettysburg the other weekend and found a really cool used book store.  Now every other week it looks like puppy shop and books for me..

Bot gotta run.. later everyone.

K